Sadness???Loneliness???

I wonder if it is consider a good or bad day...hahaha

2005-01-29T20:15:00.000-08:00

Since this blog is mainly for the feelings for her usage...i shall not talk about other thingy happen other day or whatever....just a few minutes ago...her which u all shld noe...add me into a conver into her laogong and her.....and her laogong was "toking so much thingy" with me...maybe u all think that i am coward or wat...but i dun think so...jus wanna show wat she did to me....i dun think she is a bitch...so dun misunderstand me....but i noe i am a bastard to everyone.....

her laogong and her was so sweet...and of cuz i am sad...i was going to cry...but i try my best and my tears nv come out at least...lol....nowadays whenever this thingy happen...i will try my best not to cry...i promise to...haha....her laogong oso nth beta to do seh....tok crap in front of me...say if i continue to pester her...or received another complain come find me....and make sure i will not regret...lol.....do u all think that i am scared....if u all are...then i nth to say la...and of cuz i dun....and i would be glad to let him beat...lol...or wateva....firstly...coz i nv kana this kind of thingy be4.....secondly....i am crazy....and lastly...of cuz is....it is from her de laogong....of cuz i would love it if her laogong come find me....hahahahahaha....i dun care if she and him are purposely or wat...but i will jus gif them my blessing i think.....even if still think i am pestering her to patch although i do not ask her already......then i nth to say la......

from today happening....maybe i think she really change alot...she is getting beta and beta in foloing more than my footstep of wat i done to her in the past...but i dun mind...keep on doing this kind of thing make me feel great maybe i think...hahaha......

How i wish fifi and jaslyn is online now to chat with me ah.......sian diao~!~....

JBI = Jus Bring It to Andy and her laopo......

Fun,pain,sad Day

2005-01-22T22:10:00.000-08:00

Today i woke up at 9plus....wake up of course is touch the computer lor...nothing esle better to do mah....call xianjun....ask him confirm liao ma....then he said at 1.45pm,he come down my house lor....then wait until siao lor.....

Main objective for today is actually finding a prezzie for the girl i love...and the girl xj love....1plus...xj come my house liao...we wait wait wait...then about 1.40pm then we walk to lot 1....then drink blended ice tea and then yanting and wan jie come liao lor...btw...before they 2 come damn unlucky sia...got people come to us and talk alot of cock then xj ask that person...so what do she want...she say donate money...then me and xj...think think...then say ok lor...each person 5dollar leh...waste my money sia....then went causeway le lor...elink card no money need another 5dollar to top up.....haiz.....then went causeway.......

Shoo~!~! We reached causeway walk up and down lor.....see got what kind of prezzie....Saw a nice bear....but it cost.......$113.90 dollar...i am not that rich to buy that...then also in another shop...got a couple figurie want....very nice also....and also the letter bear also buay pai.....another thingy is those kind of letter can make as bracelet of whatever want.....also quite nice la....xj plan to buy a hp and including the letter keychain for the girl lor...rich right?????haha...but i still don't know what to buy leh.....haiz.....

After walking here and there, yt and wj went to pierce ear shop lor.....but only yt pierce her ear lor.....wah...she pierce like no pain de....nv shout...haha...if me...i scream until siao le...but i will not pierce my ear de...haha....then we went acrade lor....haha.....

Go up~!~ went in acrade....of course...it is our dear rich guy who pay for us to play......i think xj top up at least 70 dollar for acrade today sia.....siao hor???haha...we play those question thingy....daytona....motor racing...shooting de.....puzzle bubble...pingpong....and alot la....haha.....it was damn fun lor...haha....play this and that....my basketball like shit sia.....shoot until so lousy...even lose girl leh...haha.....last time my shooting was like damn pro de lor....2yr no touch liao....now become this kind of standard...lousy sia me....haha.....best is the play question wan.....i lose xianjun sia...he cleverer than me....hahahaha....but when me and him tag...we two very pro..haha....we play play play until 6pm then went home lor......lazy take Mrt then we go sit taxi....haha...

Taxi part abit funny....there was quite a few cab there mah....then we was like choosing what kind of cab to sit...haha....i say citycab...because support my papa ma...haha....but then we sit the white colour de la.......haha.....inside taxi also abit funny sia....we play Zhong Ji Mi Ma...hahaha....keep playing...i lose 2 time...haha....then reach lot1...of course once again...it is xianjun who pay the fares...haha....then yt and wj went in lot1....don't know for what reasons,i forget liao..haha...then me and xianjun take 190 to pheonix and went to ten mile junction to eat lor....

Walking along the pavement to ten mile,me and xianjun sing the kung fu soccer song...very funny sia...haha....then i called my mum lor....as usual she scold me la...because i never told her i go out mah...i told her i went xianjun house again...haha...then we went to eat lor...eat yong tau foo...then eat finish..xj went to buy take away for his family lor...then we went home lor...haha....

Upon walking home...my gastric was abit pain lor....still didn't care much about it...when i reach home....kns sia.....more and more pain.......make me pain until want to die man....i went to tv there and lie down on the seat as it was too pain......at 8pm...it was still painful....i don't know what thing better can i do therefore...i tahan lor....then i come to computer...check if she is online......as predicted...she is online...but of course,also as predicted...she would be busying as today got woe mah...very important event in ro.....then i decided to give her a call lor.....then haiz......

When the phone is answered...she immediately say....i am having woe now very busy.....then i replied....woe on comp ma...cannot talk on phone meh...she continue replying say...this part i not confirm as not too clear...i think she said....i need to use phone with my kor....then i bo pian...she say later after woe...then she call me....but i would noe....after woe end...i cannot even use the phone anymore....therefore the phone was hung....i was in pain still....i come to msn and find fifi to talk...then we chit chat lor....then i also got talk to her la....but then i was like abit angry?? think so ba...haiz.....then she got reply la....she say woe very busy...don't talk to her...haiz....she say buaiZ and don't reply her le...haiz....upon seeing this kind of conversation...i was abit sad...haiz......but never mind.....

At 8.30 plus.....i feel like calling fifi to chat on phone...as i was in pain and bored......then her sis at home mah...then cannot use lor...then she say her sis going ah ma house soon...then wait lor...very long sia....say 15 min and another 15 min then another 10min...then fifi call me at 9plus lor....then we chit chat...until 9.40pm lidat....got ppl come home le...then never chat with her liao...need to hung her phone as fast as i could.....

Until now......she is still in woe.....haiz........i am getting more and more inferior compared to games and her kor i think.....haiz.....but i think i still would try my best to get her back......and hope that if i bought her a prezzie...she would accepted it....and not rejected it.....

Feelings for today: gastric dam pain...haiz......fun in acrade......no achievement in buying prezzie....sad with her.....haiz.........

Fifi also say tml want to go lot 1 look prezzie and walk walk anot...i not sure la....i don't think my mum would let lor...because i keep going to xj house nowadays....and i nv done any hw yet leh....pro????haha....

I wonder when can i patch with her????
Always waiting,mizing,loving and thinking of her~!~

Boredom Day....

2005-01-21T21:07:00.000-08:00

Today I woke up at 7.50am........is it very early for a hari raya and supposely a holiday for me???Yes i agree it is very early....haha....i think i am mad....sleep think of her....wake up oso think of her......haha....at 8.05am...my dad came out of his room and ask me...y i woke up so early...i told him i slept early yesterday about 11.45pm....lol...but i think should be at 12pm plus ba....aiya....never mind...not very important...haha......After asking me question...my mum shout....JunYi~!~!~....abit scared this moment..then i reply.....Huh~!~....then she reply again....requesting me to go to bath and go out eat.....then i was like luckily...hahaha.....after bathing and other thingys.....go down sit papa car and went to teck whye market to eat.....very crowded sia....a friend of my parent saw us...then asked us to sit with them....haha....luckily...or esle no need sit down.....

Dad order a Wanton Noodle for me.....Noted: My First Breakfast for 1 week plus....hahahaha....although the taste of the wanton noodle is not very nice...but then the feelings of eating that wanton noodle is very shiok....hahaha.....maybe everyone should learn from me....don't eat lunch and breakfast for a week and eat the breakfast..haha....jkjk...learn from me can die....so don't learn...

After breakfast....dad went to drive his taxi...left me and my mum went walk walk around teck whye "mini" shopping mall...haha....buy the light bulb because one of the light bulb in my house is spoilt....and walk 1 full round never saw any long pant that is suitable for me...then went home.....

At Home....i look and the computer...the computer look at me....lol...then talk to jovan....then i go accompany him in habbo.....talk with him alot and alot...haha...and also know that it is tomorrow that they are going out...queenway somemore....far leh....let pray nothing would happen to her....then...also ask him give what kind of prezzie is better...he said give rings....but then hor....when i ask fifi...she say not significant...hahaha....blur diaoz.....

After Talking to jovan, went to msn again lor.....look here and there for people to talk....then saw xianjun online....ask him if tomorrow confirm already.....and once again...not confirm...haha....then i went to his house lor...bring alot of things to his house.....lately i keep going to his house...hahaha....

In his House....i see him play ms lor...ms abit lame also....hahaha....fight fight fight...level.....hahaha....only character cute only...hahaha.....then also call her la....of course....hahaha....she said she outside....with parents la....then i said ok lor...then also ask her can patch anot...she reply dunno...then i say never mind...i will wait...haha...and also miz her lotZ...she say she never heard never heard...i say never mind....i got say can le...then got eat instant noodle as my lunch...haha....then watch the wei xiao bao with xj....funny seh...that wei xiao bao show...abit porn type....but it is shown at channel 8 hor...haha....then alot of people of his father friends come play mahjong...then me and him went back to room also lor...play chess....i lose until kns...haha...got call her again...haha....i called her 3times...and last want is xj call want....when xj called....she hung phone...xj say de...hahaha....but then i think she cannot ans ba maybe....then i use xj hp sms her lor...but then as usual......she never reply......everytime also lidat de...other ppl got reply...my wan is nothing...haha...but also...never mind....then also very sian lor....wanted to call yu xuan "jiejie" but then don't dare...haha....later she scold me i scared sia...hahaha...then went watch tv lor......journey to the west.....after watching...then i went home le....

At home,i call her again...but then voicemail thingy again....said that so late le...parent still never bring her back...then also that i miz her lotZ and a buaiZ to her.....i was damn tired...then i sleep at my computer there......then woke up at 8pm plus lor......then i look computer computer look me lor..........sian diao lor.....until now......haiz......

At 8.50,she online le....then i say a hihi...immediately a busy sign from her...haiz.....i think she playing ba...coz yuann and jovan also busy busy.....never mind then lor...she ask me dun pm her le...coz she very lag...normally lag also due to games..haha...not blaming her la....never mind lor....i must have the determination and patient to wait....even if it take me foreva.....

Until now....i am crazy.....nothing better to do.......haiz..............

Comment for today: Bore Bore Bore......haiz.......hope that tomorrow would be a better day....btw....i ask her wat thingy she like.....she say i better don't buy for her....i tried to ask her out on valentine...but she reply...don't know yet....due to maybe got activites for Lpd....haiz....let pray lpd could let her to spend with me that particular 1 day.....haiz......just one day will do.....

that is all for today.....Loving,Mizing and Thinking of her AlwayZ........*muaCkZ*

2005-01-20T18:30:00.000-08:00

Too sian liao~!~lol...take alot of pic....

2005-01-20T18:28:00.000-08:00

Another Me~!~!...sian ah...lol

Miserable and Tough Day for me

2005-01-20T09:10:00.000-08:00

Today early in the morning 6am wake up...bath ready...ready to go school..tag my blog...wear my shoes take a green tea and set off to school....by walking....omg...it was damn cold man....espcially drinking my green tea which took out from the fridge was freezing cold...imagine that on a street in a dark dark early morning....taking a freezing cold water and drink....and bath some more.....it would be damn damn cold...haha....then hor i went to school lor.....today math test hor..haha

Reach School canteen le....then take my math and study until mad....because i realised...i did not know very much to solve some high standard questions...haha....then i learn and learn.....then at about 7.00am....my gastric started to be painful.....i think i have been not eating my breakfast and lunch for 1week plus already...haha.....then today it happen.....wish that i would not die before february...haha....it was damn painful...but never mind....i can tolerate....and i believe i can....then stomachache came.....omg........i hate stomachache in school....just because the toliet in school is terribly disgusting and dirty...hahahaha....then at about 7.20am to 7.25am.....the girl came to canteen already.....then she went to buy noodle to eat.....then eat eat eat....she ate until about....7.44 ba...haha....but then i was nearing my death man....my stomachache and gastric was pain like hell....terribly weak to walk...therefore i request zihao to help me take my bag and i take his book and my files...then we went to parade square....

Walk walk walk....outside canteen there....hongwei came...i was terribly in need of help...therefore i ask him to help me take the books and files....then he went canteen find leslie and me and zihao went to parade square to our class....looking at that girl again....although i was in pain.....then i tolerate those pain...but after singing national anthem and pledge....i was bursting~!~!~ therefore i lend tissue paper from hongwei and ran to the toliet....and there was damn lot of students blocking my way and i repeat "excuse me" more than 20times i think..haha....i tried to look at the girl as much as i could...but too bad....my pain do not let me to...haha.....

In the Toliet.......erm.....*things happened....dun wish to tell more deeper.....but i told xianjun liao..hahaha*...then blah blah blah....i was ok already..*relieved*..then i ran immediately to my class as....it was 8.05am already.......i ran until the 3rd floor....then my gastric problem came again.......it was darn unlucky to me i think....then i slowly walk to 4th floor and proceed to my classroom...and catching my breath...walk past her classroom...look at her again...and turn to my classroom then told ms filzah i went toliet then went to my seat....

time passes.....recess liao.....went to study math....then gastric pain again...continue to study....then wait wait wait.....after CME....MATH~!~!~!~!~Dang Dang Dang Dang~!~!~

The Death for me has Began.....muahahahaha....the paper consists of 9questions and i only managed to get 1 ans....2 qns nv do...and others 6qns stuck.....for the last 2 question...i nv notice it was sultmutaneous equation as i was forcusing for the front page questions...when i was about to start question 8....mrs philip...say...Stop Writting....haiz.....then i was damn pissed??? but nvm....i am sure i am getting out of the class for next week onwards...come and visit me if possible...thank you..haha....

After my death of math....it was physics....omg...it was worst!?!?!?!? mr tan came in and scold us....and tell us don't know what....then i was quite blur?? but nvm...then he ask who never do the worksheet...then he started scolding alot of thing......then karen maybe most pity...because teacher scold in front of her because she sit in front mah...and teacher table so near..haha...then 3.30 got remedial sia...haiz...then me wait wait in class hor...got collect money for nametag...got go canteen....go canteen like shit sia...gastric pain also...but still minor la...then physic remedial...very chim...quite understand ba......

After Physics....then walk walk walk...out of school liao...went to bus stop....zihao and kokwei gone....i go find them...and ng li wait at bus stop...then at playground there...hongwei and zamman walking out...then they walk until playground....ask him thingy....then i hurt my head....damn painful...i jump abit then hit the yellow bar...damn hard...damn pain...haiz....wonder got swollen anot....then went back to bus stop...grace at there already.....then saw zihao...then shout him...ask them where jovan they all...he say at mama shop...then we went up...and saw them...of course that girl is also there.....then they playing lor......toot here and there....nothing better to do i think...then she dance with her/mine nuer....then i saw xianjun....shout for him....then we went home together.....

Walking Back home.......me and xianjun chit chat...then go his house watch journey to the west again.....and take a cup noodles from my house until his house to cook and eat.....lol....today i only eat that cup noodles....pro??....then i call randy at about 6.35pm with xianjun handphone...she answered...and i asked where is she...she said going home...then i said ok...then hang up......fast???? 14 second only...haiz.....then i went home...reach my home at about...6.45pm ba.....then i call xianjun said he left he book in my house...then i call randy le....at about 6.55pm i call her.....because i think she should reach home le...but then...i was right...she was at home...but in washroom....pro??? even washroom also need to bring handphone...haiz......wonder what is so important...even need it in washroom...haha....but never mind....also could not control...

Then this time not more than even 5sec then hung liao.....haha....in the past....when i called her....it was very very seldomly...now i am able to call her frequently...but it was too late for me...haiz.......should i really blame myself???? i should i think.........then i came back to computer....so sian today......

Feelings for today: Sad,Painful,Miserable,Bored.

Some comment for today: Hope that she would become better in attire as i mentioned already....tuck in shirt la....don't fold in....can the socks be longer??? and can i see your name in a clearer way??? understand??? haha....aiya....i type here...she also don't so nvm la...haha...
and also......dun shout and scream...or rather talk loudly.....take care of yourself...

I think i finally typed finish le...haha....i from 7.50pm like that...type until 9.10pm....haiz....long hor...i think no one would read le also...haha...so dun quite mind....

Let pray saturday...xianjun will treat me sakae sushi...and we can go shop shop for prezzie...for his and mine girl that we love...haha....

Always Loving Her De Wo...*miz her lotZ*

Lonely....

2005-01-19T09:05:00.000-08:00

Hihi everyone....this is the first time i create my own blog~!~that time is my da jie da help me make want...this blog is type for my feelings or even sometime jealousy or whatever towards her lor...

Today 2something do the PC we never do that thingy....one of the Self Improvement...i put my goal as Patch with her...nowadays...i been thinking and thinking about her....i cannot stop myself from thinking bout her...i hate studies more and more too...Today after that thingy...i went to walk around the school lor....then after awhile....xj,zh,wb and me went to the pull up bar there we sit and chit chat lor....we talk about girls we like...i mean describe the girl la...the relationship like how....i describe the girl as an apple....at first when the apple look nice and tasty...i do not care....i leave it on the table and take it for granted.....after awhile...the apple started to rot...and no edible...i tried to use the seed in the apple to grow it again....but no matter how i grow...the seed doesn't growth...it is staying there...i do not know what i can do to make it grow again...but i wish someone could tell me the answer to let it grow....

At 5something...her cca was let off and we were staying near the gate...she was forever talking to her friends...concerning her friends more than me...i could say in theory i would not mind...but actually i really wish she could care for me...after many ppl came then we set off to kopitiam to eat...she took a long time to eat.....and keep on talking and talking...which i do not like it very much as her voice has already changed and she still keep talking loudly and say she would not mind if this voice of her presently is permanent....i really wish she would change to a girl which is better and not shouting here and there everyday...haiz.....

At 6something....it was already quite late....and she is still talking and eating at the same time....i also couldn't do anything to stop here...and melanie was checking her messages of whatever...i do not know what the message was about but i think it must be something good to her....and sweet maybe....coz she was laughing when she told mela...i also heard mela saying what thingy then she reply do not be mistaken...i am not sure and i am also not in the position to know...so let it be a mystery to me....after she ate finish....i need to rush home as it was nearly 7pm...and they went home another way and i walked home....

Wish for her: Please do not play any truancy and it is to all my friend espcially her
please not do shout and scream so much...take care of your throat...Attire thingy...i cannot help it....whatever she do i also cannot stop so...just hope she would change....Take more care of ur health and lastly be more hardworking,go home earlier, sleep earlier.

Will be Forever looking out for her................

2005-01-19T04:05:00.000-08:00

That Is me~!~